Saturday, December 12, 2009

Now that I have you all here.....

It's all out there for us to see. Tiger being roasted alive. Couldn't get any better unless they dug up Foster Brooks. The Kate and Ally plus 8 or whoever these people that i'm supposed to care about are. This months edition of some sthallow wench  being crowned the next great model. Have you seen the freak on that show who is one of the judges? An extreme pageboy cut and whatever bizzarre outfit he copied off of Little Audrey cartoons that apparenly is deemed "fashion edgy" because this weido is wearing it.And by all means, keep putting "Speidi" on TV. Keep giving credibility to these losers. This airhead follower "Heidi", who is just to stupid to live and "Spencer", yes Spencer. I would love to meet you in a dark alley. I'm not a violent person but for you I would gladly make an exception. A liitle brain damage couldn't do anything but improve your charector.
   We have the fortune of watching our President receive a Nobel Peace Prize because he's a "well intentioned" guy. I watch the main stream media gush over this unproven man as though he were the second coming of Martin Luthor King. I preffer not to use profanity but I call them "Star Fuckers"  The entire time all are saying Fox is alll about trashing the President.Don't get me wrong Fox does go over the edge at times but geez, someone has to. Certainly not Brian Williams, Katie Couric or Charles Gibson. They're to obsessed with the chance to kiss the Presidents ring. Not to mention other parts of his annatomy
   By the way, who the hell are the "Hills" And the "Kardashians"? Lemme see, what is it, the Kardashian with the biggest butt is the most popular this month? Will you morons stop watching  this crap!!!!!
   Oprah's ending her show. Is that perhaps because she finally realized that she hasn't been relevant for years!! Except of course for her devoted "Oprah book of the month" sheep. TYRA gets better ratings talking about going undercover as a stripper                                                                                                     There's a Doctors show on, and another show with a Doctor.I love the idea that these people are supposed to be telling us about healthy living yet every other feature is about botox or  tummy tux or breast implants. Thanks for enlightening us on how to boost our self esteem through surgery. It's obvious that Billy Crystal was right."It's better to look good, then to feel good."
   I've got Dr. Phil telling everyone what their problems are but seldom does he get into any meaningful discussion on how to resolve these issues. I can do that!!! It isn't brain surgery to disect wthe dynamics of a family. My understanding is that he isn't even licensed to practice anymore.
   OHMYGOD , how many weeks am I going to have to listen to "Gotta git that,gotta git that, gotta hit that,gotta git that ,gotta git that, gotta hit that". Surely these are lyrics Woody Guthrie or Bob Dylan would be shaking heads saying, "Why didn't I think of that" I mean WOW, Boom Boom Pow. That is deep thinking. I actually thought the black eyed peas had promise when they first came out. You know, Fergie, Will I Am, and Ap De Ap and that other guy. Anybody know his name? Naah, me neither. He had better hold on tight to those coatails.

Wednesday, March 18, 2009

Another day shot by having to leave the house.

Am I alone in struggling just to leave my house everyday? Depression, Manic Depression, ADHD, Character disorders, Substance abuse. What the hell is going on??!! Lets try a new med today. Jeezus Christ there are some I haven't tried yet? Shouldn't I be getting royalties or something from GlaxoSmithKline? Oh wait, I think my insurance company gets them.

I fight constantly not to become a homeless person. I don't think I could handle that. Last time I was homeless I lived on a campground by a beach in my Explorer, had a cell phone and XM radio in the summertime.. Gotta say, that wasn't the worst 6 weeks of my life. I have a feeling next time won't be so much fun.

I'm constantly fighting my urge to hide from any challenge and losing just about everytime. I'm in my second semester of college, didn't finish a class first semester and looks like I may not finish one this semester either. I truly want to do the right thing. My intentions are pure. I don't have any underlying motives for blowing off every obligation I have. The evening before I have an obligation I plan on meeting it, I wake up and, just don't. I can't explain it. I just can't handle any form of stress whatsoever. I have paperwork strewn all over my room, unopened letters and unopened documents that I just don't want to look at. Not sure why I don't open them but there they are, just sitting there. Could be good news for all I know.