Am I alone in struggling just to leave my house everyday? Depression, Manic Depression, ADHD, Character disorders, Substance abuse. What the hell is going on??!! Lets try a new med today. Jeezus Christ there are some I haven't tried yet? Shouldn't I be getting royalties or something from GlaxoSmithKline? Oh wait, I think my insurance company gets them.
I fight constantly not to become a homeless person. I don't think I could handle that. Last time I was homeless I lived on a campground by a beach in my Explorer, had a cell phone and XM radio in the summertime.. Gotta say, that wasn't the worst 6 weeks of my life. I have a feeling next time won't be so much fun.
I'm constantly fighting my urge to hide from any challenge and losing just about everytime. I'm in my second semester of college, didn't finish a class first semester and looks like I may not finish one this semester either. I truly want to do the right thing. My intentions are pure. I don't have any underlying motives for blowing off every obligation I have. The evening before I have an obligation I plan on meeting it, I wake up and, just don't. I can't explain it. I just can't handle any form of stress whatsoever. I have paperwork strewn all over my room, unopened letters and unopened documents that I just don't want to look at. Not sure why I don't open them but there they are, just sitting there. Could be good news for all I know.
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